I'm Still Here

[edit] Lyrics

She said to me, over the phone
She wanted to see other people
I thought, "well then, look around, they're everywhere"
Said that she was confused...
I thought, "darling, join the club"
24 years old, mid-life crisis
Nowadays hits you when you're young
I hung up, she called back, i hung up again
The process had already started
At least it happened quick
I swear, i died inside that night
My friend, he called
I didn't mention a thing
The last thing he said was, "be sound"
Sound...

I contemplated an awful thing, i hate to admit
I just thought those would be such appropriate last words
But i'm still here
And small
So small.. how could this struggle seem so big?
So big...

While the palms in the breeze still blow green
And the waves in the sea still absolute blue
But the horror
Every single thing i see is a reminder of her
Never thought i'd curse the day i met her
And since she's gone and wouldn't hear
Who would care? what good would that do?
But i'm still here

So i imagine in a month...or 12
I'l be somewhere having a drink
Laughing at a stupid joke
Or just another stupid thing
And i can see myself stopping short
Drifting out of the present
Sucked by the undertow and pulled out deep
And there i am, standing
Wet grass and white headstones all in rows
And in the distance there's one, off on its own
So i stop, kneel
My new home...

And i picture a sober awakening, a re-entry into this little bar scene
Sip my drink til the ice hits my lip
Order another round
And that's it for now
Sorry
Never been too good at happy endings...

[edit] Trivia & Notes

• It was first reported that this song was found as a hidden track on a promo copy and/or Japanese version of Lost Dogs. This information is FALSE. It has never been officially released on any album or promotional material. It was leaked from an unofficial source at the same time Lost Dogs was leaked on the internet, and included as part of the leak. However, it was never part of the album.
• There is a song by Mad Season (a band including Mike McCready of Pearl Jam and Layne Staley of Alice In Chains fame) called "Interlude" (released only on a promotional disc). It is a short song with no words and only an acoustic guitar playing a light melody. The guitar played on "Interlude" bares a striking resemblance to the background guitar played in "I'm Still Here". Because of this, it is assumed that this was a guitar piece written by Mike McCready and altered to be used in "I'm Still Here".

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